No matter what you do or say, there's nothing that you can do to make people understand you. (Kurt Cobain)
Men are too busy with their own business. So rely on God. Don't rely on people. (Me)
Never rely on people. Even your own shadow leaves you when you're in the darkness. (Someone. I forgot who).
A few days a go I exchanged life stories with my close friend just to release the pain we've been suffering.
I understand her story. Not completely, perhaps. But at least I try to.
But she doesn't understand mine. And she doesn't even try.
But I wasn't angry. At least she listened. Unlike some others who want to be claimed as friends but don't do anything to prove it.
Besides, I think I got the lesson. Only God could understand me. Even I myself couldn't understand how or why I feel something about some things.
Even Kurt Cobain, he only got the closest equivalent of how I felt about life.
But that's enough. I shouldn't expect too much. It's greedy.
God alone is enough. Creator always understands what he creates. Others may not understand the way creatures can't understand. Because they're no God.
gue nggak percaya sama kebanyakan orang.
temen gue ya yang sekarang masih mau berteman sama gue setelah semua yang gue lalui.
bukan orang yang dateng ke gue cuma kalo lagi pengen nanya pelajaran pas SMA, pengen ditraktir sebelum gue pergi ke australia, pengen dibeliin oleh2 dari australia yg mahal2 ga kira2 pula.... terus kalo gue ga sesuai sm apa mau dia langsung ngasih remark negatif. tapi di belakang. bukan langsung di depan gue. dan selalu ngatain gue dengan kata2an superficial, ngeremehin gue, dsb, dst padahal ngelaluin yang gue laluin aja belom pernah.
tapi masih bilang gue temen. sekali lagi kalo ada maunya. doang.
kadang capek sih. ada batasnya juga orang dimanfaatin.
lah kalo dia sendiri nggak bisa dimanfaatin buat gue, ya buat apa lagi lah? nyakitin melulu pula simbiosis itu minimal komensalisme lah.
Sebenarnya dari kecil udah tau dia, udh dengerin lagu2 dia, tp karena satu dan dua hal... belakangan ini saya mulai fangirlingin beliau dengan serius. Hahaha.
Gue kagum banget sama dia. He gave up the whole world for the hereafter. Bayangin aja, lagi di masa2 dia jd org terkenal yg dikelilingi kehedonan dunia, tiba2 dia langsung meninggalkan semua kenikmatan dunia demi menjadi seorang Muslim yang sederhana dan membantu sesama Muslim di penjuru dunia (baik dalam bidang sosial, pendidikan, ekonomi, seni, dsb).
Dulu, gue bercita2 punya suami yang ganteng, kaya, pinter, sempurna lah pokoknya. Tapi setelah belakangan gue fangirlingin Cat Stevens, gue tau ada tipe laki2 yang lebih baik daripada tipe laki2 "sempurna" dalam pandangan gue selama ini. Ya, tentunya tipe laki2 yang ikhlas mengorbankan kesempurnaannya karena mencintai Tuhannya. Subhanallah. Semoga Allah selalu memberkatinya. :')