Cuma kesel aja. Di kantor kakak gue ada koruptor. Kakak gue yg ngaudit, yg tau dia korup. Tapi akhirnya malah kakak gue yg ditekan sm orang2 kantornya, dan akhirnya kakak gue yg resign (gapapalah, daripada dia di situ terus). Tapi yg bikin gue kesel adalah ngebayangin orang2 mengerikan yg udah korup, ngerasa ga salah, bangga akan kekorupannya pula, dan bersenang2 karena merasa mereka menang. Heran, gue jg punya banyak sifat jelek. Tapi gue nggak bangga akan sifat2 jelek itu. Gue pengen banget "sembuh" dari sifat2 jelek itu. Jadi serius, gue nggak ngerti jalan pikiran orang2 yg bangga akan sifat jelek mereka.
Dan tiba2 gue jadi inget line-nya Bonasera dari film The Godfather (1972)
I believe in America. America has made my fortune. And I raised my daughter in the American fashion. I gave her freedom but I taught her never to dishonor her family. She found a "boy friend," not an Italian. She went to the movies with him. She stayed out late. I didn't protest. Two months ago he took her for a drive, with another boy friend. They made her drink whiskey and then they tried to take advantage of her. She resisted. She kept her honor. So they beat her. Like an animal. When I went to the hospital her nose was broken. Her jaw was shattered, held together by wire. She couldn't even weep because of the pain. But I wept. Why did I weep? She was the light of my life. A beautiful girl. Now she will never be beautiful again.
I went to the police, like a good American. These two boys were brought to trial. The judge sentenced them to three years in prison, and suspended the sentence. Suspended sentence! They went free that very day! I stood in the courtroom like a fool, and those two bastards, they smiled at me. Then I said to my wife, "For justice, we must go to Don Corleone."
Gue mendadak sangat berharap ada Godfather yang bisa ngebalesin semua sakit hati gue kepada orang2 yg tidak diberikan keadilan oleh hukum. Atau paling nggak, ada yg ngejatohin buku Deathnote dari langit biar bisa gue bunuhin satu2 orang2 yg kayak gitu.
Yah, tapi kalo itu terjadi, manusia itu memang lemah dan tidak adil. Jadi lebih baik gue pasrah aja. Nunggu keadilan dari Hakim Yang Maha Adil. Tuhan Maha Tahu, Tapi Dia Menunggu.